The worst stuff in the world

I need prayer. I am really struggling a LOT right now. Since I was about six my dad has verbally abused me, and on occasion physically. When I was twelve, my great-grandfather started molesting me. And then seventeen days ago... this hurts me the most, I was raped when I was leaving work. I feel so dirty and used and abused and ashamed and I don't know what else. I feel like I'll never be clean. I have so much hatred in my heart right now. I hate my life. I want to kill myself to get away from the pain! It hurts! I can't handle it anymore! PLEASE HELP! - Anonymous